Oh My Craps (!)

Sekarang tepat jam 11.o8 pm .

Not going to school tomorrow .

Seriously I have no mood to study .

No point one .

Like wasting time in there .

Idk since when I got no interest going to school .

Hari ini langsung takde mood sebab masalah family.

Mungkin aku ni dah banyak menyusahkan family aku kan .

Haihh . Yelah , semata-mata nak menurut kehendak aku .

Aku pulak nak kena menurut kehendak sekolah dan guru2 di sekolah ,

aku terpaksa jugak menyusahkan mama dengan ayah .

So what ? Bagi aku , aku berhak mintak apa-apa sahaja yang sekolah minta dari aku .

Aku berhak mintak dekat parents aku , kan ?

Habis tu ? Kalau aku tak mintak , asal lahirkan aku kat dunia nie ?

Aku tunaikan tanggungjawab aku sebagai pelajar .

Serius aku cakap , kalau aku tak dilahirkan kat dunia ni , aku tak susah kan mama dengan ayah kan ? Aku bukan pelajar apatah lagi anak . Tapi sekarang I'm already exist in this world .

Aku dah buat sehabis baik dalam pelajaran aku .

Tapi selama ini , aku buat yang terbaik dalam pelajaran pun sebab masa depan aku .

Aku tak pernah fikir pun aku belajar sampai ke puncak paling tinggi mana sekali pun untuk keluarga aku . Tak pernah terfikir .

Selama aku belajar , yang ada cuma aku , dengan akal yang Allah kurniakan .

Sama ada aku cemerlang atau ataupun aku bersengkang mata pada tengah malam ,

They won't care . They don't bother .

But guess what ? Bila suatu masa nanti , aku dah mula down ,

I mean , pelajaran aku dah start down , I bet 100 % they will scold me like hell .

Memang takdir kot .

Kadang-kadang aku fikir jugak tujuan aku dilahirkan .

Siang malam tunduk sujud minta hidayah dan petunjuk hidup .

Sometimes, aku senang terpengaruh .

Aku pun nak mengaku , dalam hati , banyak kali terlintas mengutuk kawan-kawan aku ,

family aku dan yang paling teruk , ibu bapa aku .

Mulut aku kira baik la jugak . Tapi hati JAHAT .

Cakap pasal mulut . Aku tak tahu lah aku bercampur dengan siapa sampai mulut aku ni selalu je terlepas kata-kata yang menyakitkan . Aku terikut-ikut gurauan senda yang kasar di sekeliling aku . Nak cakap salah aku sendiri , entah la . It might be . Aku tak suka macam ni .

Berbalik pada ketidakminatan aku untuk menghadiri sekolah ,

semua sebab kerja praktikal yang aku tangguhkan .

Tapi ditambah lagi dengan masalah family , makin tertekan aku .

Kalau cerita lebih detail ,

Aku sebenarnya dah missed class physics and I'm worried to the maximum

Sum more add maths I'm totally lost ! ;(

It's my routine again

Another four papers to go ! :)

Haven't got BM , Eng , PJK and Sivik .

Gahaha ! Eng paper totally get low marks one .

Don't have to expect getting A or a B la .

Whatever , I don't bother .

Whether my marks are low or good , I am still alive right ?

Just that yesterday I felt down cause of add maths .

So far ~~~~~ Uh , got a C which is Add maths and the rest A's . Syukur .

Grateful . Even a C didn't make me satisfy .

But it is enough I guess .

I already know how to adjust my time when doing add maths paper next time .

i'll practice more :)

Experience is the best teacher , aite ?

Well , done with that .

Tomorrow is going to be the election for the badminton comp .

So , just wish us luck .

Hope that lady-luck will shine on us tomorrow nite ;) amin .

This evening I got Jap dance . It is called Soran Bushi dance .

I had practising it before when I was in form 1 but I gotta stopped a while .

Then I came back to dance that Soran Bushi dance again :D

Wish I could catch the step up fast . It's not that hard .

Well , thanks to VeeVien la bcos

she's the one that taught me the first and the 2nd section .

Thank youuuu !

As I am in the Japanese Club , I or we will be performing on the Japanese Cultural Day,

which will be held in MGS itself and other schools have been invited along .

If I am not mistaken , the school form Shah Alam and kL will join us .

Jap club will hold a Jap Camp but haven't sure yet .

Can't wait ,dude ! ^__^

That's all for today's post ^^" haha

Exam sheet vs exam sh*t

Let's begin with sigh , everyone ~

It's the getting-exam-marks week . Oh noOO (!)

My marks so far were bad , seriously bad like a bad injuries on my head =='

I had never feel down when getting marks . Actually , even I have not taken any marks also , everyone kept mentoning failed, failed, and failed all the time.

So , all those such things totally make me down even I was expecting a great marks when I was doing the paper before .

The depression is too high , dam* higher than the feeling during taking the exam sheets .

Oh my ! What happen deyy ?!

Well as for now , I've already got 4 papers . An A+ , syukur alhamdulillah , two A's and a A- .

The A- made me feel bad :( Physics lar :(

So tomorrow gonna get Add maths paper for sure . Perhaps Acc and Agama too .

I don't know what feeling should I express when getting back my add maths paper from Mr Ong .

Neither with smiling nor a gigling . duhh ==' never .

Kan dah merepek (!)

So , let's pray to Allah .

The PMR result has no meaning any more .

Just keep on moving with the new lesson . I know myself well and I know I can do it !

Just have to manage myself . It is easy to plan but I don't know whether it may works on me or not . Most probably , not .

Apa apa pun , yang aku tau , kalau first monthly test pun markah macam budak tadika , pls la Faiqah , your journey ends there . U have nothing to do . It's a very simple and basic question papers dear . No such thing like , 'susah la ' or 'ala baru first monthly test' atau yang lebih teruk , 'ala tahun nie bukannya SPM ' . DUHH ? Is that what you're thinking of ?

But I had to admit a thing that this year , all the teachers are very strict on giving marks . No markah kesian okay ? Even the answer was correct also they wouldn't give any such marks like half or somethin . IT'S A NO . No working, no marks .Faham ? :'(

Kali nie kena bergerak pantas , otak budak form 3 , tinggal kan buat sementara .

Holiday is coming very soon . I bet it's NOT gonna be an enjoyable holiday as before .

Seriously guys . Grow up . Be mature . But don't be like a robot, like a ro-bot . o.O

(like a g6 rhythm . haha)

Kalau tension , music might help you, kan ?

Oh by the wayy , the cross country event will be held on the March 11 .

Ahh can't wait ! But I bet there will be few students only coming to school on that day since it'll be held a day before holiday .

Hey you ! The one who is reading this , pls come okay !? :)

Till then , Assalamualaikum :)

Um .

Well I've been thinking about this for a while .

Do you you know what I've experienced throughout my life so far?

You never do .

But I realized something . It's better to be alone .

Rather than to be with someone , just to make your life so complicated .

Don't talk about boys .

It's obvious if I posted something like this for them .

it's so enough .

I don't even know why I am too easy falling for someone .

" I hate you because you make me love you ! "

I had think a while .

I never need you .

And just , stop being so attractive in front of me la .

And then my heart gonna swing like crazy .

Then I realize you can never be mine .

Just stop doing such things :)

*kinda strange warning . haha .

Perhaps that is why I hate boys .

And friends , I am begging you .

Stop asking me "Who's your boyfriend?" or "Tipu la kau takde boyfie"

Like seriously , (?)

What do you want me to say ?

I will never be so secretive la if I have someone whom I love .

There's nothing to hide .

So stop being so kepo , okayy ?

Fine la if you can't stop being so kepo ,

just assume that I'm reserved .

haha . What the heck I'm just saying ?! o.O"

I admit it that I missed to have someone special like my friends do .

Yet there is a thing reminds me ,

"Never be the woman who needs a man , Be the girl that a man needs."

Err , something like that , i supposed .

Well , I am happy and grateful to be single yet an independent woman .

Sigh ~ why do you guys keep asking me like I never answer your s*upid question before ?

Just turn around and get a life, darling . *wink*

Um .

When I told you I was sick ,

you cried .

When I got on the plane to have my operation ,

you didn't say good bye .

I got lucky and got a heart donor .

But when I came home ,

I couldn't find you .

Finally I asked your mom .

& she said with tears in her eyes .

"Where do you think you got the heart from?"

february 24th , GAHHHH !

YAYYY ! EXAM'S OVER ! :D

Well , today is the last day of first monthly test ! Wohoo !
It has been a couple of weeks i did not face you, lappy ! ;)
So I have been missing you all the time even I was actually afraid to sit next to you =='
The purpose of my post tonight is about the exam :)

The test was on january 21st to 24th .
But then , I just started studying a week before .
Yeah , students love a last minute study , i suppose . lol .
However , :( the band president asked me and friends to design and complete the bulletin board of MGS BAND . Yeah , I was totally hate it eventhough we ended up with a great design :D
Hate it so much ! Don't have spare time to study . gahh !
Anyway , past is past . Don't want to mention about that ever , :(

p/s : you guys may come and visit our band bulletin board if you want to ^^'

And hell yeah , the election for the badminton comp ! That made me even MAD !
When did I study ? There I go . Serves me right .
You guys should be thankful that you aren't like me . You guys got SOOO MUCH time to study when I was busy doing something else :(

Syukur Alhamdulillah that I was able to do it well . I did my best . yeah .
And IF you mind to know , here are some of my perceptions against every subject of the first monthly test ;

FIRST DAY :
Bahasa Melayu - 'gahh ! thank god it was quite easy !'

Physics - 'errr , it's hard , ohh nawhh . As long as I can do it, it's no big deal.I don't even care about it . I CAN PASS ! '

Sejarah - 'alhamdulillah . My hard works memorising frequently has paid off ! :) '

Mathematics - 'hey my fav lahh . alhamdulillah . yet i was surprised there's few questions of form 3-s . nasib baik ingat lagi. Senang kan korang :) sure can pass . but i did not sure for the last question . I get the wrong info :O '

SECOND SCARY DAY :
English - 'duhh . I kept asking my friends , what were they read for english test ?! i was worried that i didn't revise at all ! :O it's hard ! yeah for me la . Mesti senang kan bagi korang :( '

Chemistry - 'Alhamdulillah . Insyaallah boleh pass . Aku tak tahu kenapa aku tak sure sedangkan this is my fav subject pulak . I don't even remember the questions in that paper . So bad ~ i guess it was easy .'

Accounts - 'yeah , love it ! Same as sejarah , my hard works paid off . gahahaha ! :)'

Pend Sivik - 'duhh , nasib baik lah jugak dah baca malam . tak kisah la . lebih risau dengan kawan2 yang tak baca sivik langsung :( '

THIRD DAY :
Pend Islam - 'one word , SENANG ! :) tapi tak syok jawab objektif sebab tak biasa . Btw rindu Pn Salbiah . :') '

Biology - 'Yayyy ! dah suka bio ! :) insyaallah boleh pass ! '

PJK - 'benci ! suke ! entah la . kena suka jugak kot . sebab nanti nak amek course sains sukan bila dah besar :P '

LAST DAY :

Add Maths - Speechless . The question was quite easy . yeah I can say it is medium level .
But the thing is the period . It is SO NOT enough okay ! 1 hour ? urgh ! I was shivering doing add maths but enjoy my ugly hand-writing :) gahahaha ! padan muka cikgu . :P i was expected to get A for this subj . urgh ! in your dream la ==' '


So thats all for now . :) GTG ! Ohh . do you see the pict below ?

apa korang fikir ?
mesti kenal kan ? :)

tak kisah la .

First aku tgk gmba nie , korang tau tak ,

aku fikir nak pergi skola pakai macam apa yang dia nie pakai .

haha ! gilaaa . memang style lahh . formal pun formal jugak kan ? :) haha .

15.2.2011

Night :)

Hari ni cuti sebab Sambutan Maulidur Rasul ,12 Rabiul Awal .

So , hari ni telah berada di sekolah pukul 7 hingga 11 . Seronok ^__^

Ceramah yang boleh dikatakan 'thumbs up' ! :D

Senang je aku kena influence . Tapi bila nak berubah pun tak tahu lah .

Well , hari ni jugak F8 telah mengadakan study group buat kali yang kedua tahun ini .

Datang rumah Liyana pukul 1 . Sampai2 je , yeah 7 members of F8 .

siapa sorang yang tak join tu ? biar kita2 je yang tahu :)

Hari ini kepala otak pening macam *entahla*

Add maths la kot yang buat aku naik gilaa .

Memang senang , tapi nak terangkan balik kat orang lain tu susah .

Syukur Alhamdulillah korang faham . And sorry korang .

Aku seriously tak tahu yang korang langsung tak faham apa2 pasal function .

Aku ingat nak skip je yang basic . By the wayyy , harap sangat2 korang faham !

Satu jam tak cukup la untuk ajar add maths . Aku doakan korang cepat catch up apa yang tersirat kat function nie . Amin .

So far hari ni study Add maths je kot . Haa, and Chemistry .

Itu pun Chemistry study dengan sape je .

Hari ni seronok sebab banyak buat video :)

Liyana dengan Aliah la rajin sangat . Tapi plan aku tak menjadi pulak .

Ingat nak interview sorang2 . Tapi masing masing masuk air , especially Aliah .

So , just dorang je yang dapat di-interview , :) syokkk ahh !

Hari ni je dapat tengok Liyana jadi Emo+Psycho . haha ! :)

Aliah pulak tiba tiba jadi ngada2 buat lawak tersirat . lol . XD

Yeah , aku lah yang record masa sebelum habis study .

Adlina pulak gelak sampai tergolek-golek :) haha cute ! :D

Nadhrah and Fatin gelak2 cam biasa :) Nadhirah je sorang2 buat hw . Rajinnya laa . ^^

Next , kami semua gerak ke Dewan KO untuk bermain badminton .

Actually nak train diri aku & Liyana untuk hari jumaat ni . FUhh. Takut .

Mula2 lawan dengan Ezzati & Nadhirah . Err menang 21-15 .

Kami pun agak notice yang ktorg ada perubahan , alhamdulillah .

BUT ! Bila masa lawan Khaliq & Fatin je , kalah . HAHA !

Yana , kita belum cukup UMPHH la . ^_^

Dari tadi aku cakap kat Yana , "what-happen2 !" geram betul .

Tauu la Khaliq pandai main :) haha . Heyy thanks jugak la rembat byk kali .

Memang tengah cari kelemahan diri pun :)

Haihh kali nie kalah 21-16 tak silap . haha . apa la . banyak mistakes !

Short note ;

Fatin , saya tak notice IM yang awak cakap perhaps awak last jumpa dia hari ni .

Sorry , notice lambat .

Nasib baik awak cakap . Hmm . Agak sedih la Khaliq nak masuk hostel kann .

Haihh . Sabar kay fatin . F8 ada .

Well of course F8 tak boleh tandingi kemesraan awak dengan dia . *cehh ayat tak boleh blah .

Tapi rasanya ktorang akan try kot , hihi . Sabar k .

Yeah I am going to miss you Aedes !

Aduhai , rindu pulak nak buli dia . haha ! okay la .

Take care Aedes . ^_^

p/s : yeah i am looking forward to the photography session for tomorrow ! :D lazy to come actually . sigh ~

band note ,

huh . hate it ! duhh =.=' idk y . omg BANDDDD !! i still need some rest deyy !

i know la you guys got exam nxt week ! but what about me ?! Tension tauu ! asal last minute baru nk cakap buat bulletin board tu !

Hate youuuu ! ;(