Letting out

School life. Turns out to be mess day by day.

And now, it is almost 12am and I still in front of lappy.

I've planned to finish up all my homeworks but I end up doing nothing.

It is all because the stupid commitments towards school.

I didn't blame on the school tasks. It is me who needs to change my lifestyle.

I myself have realised the changes that is happening to me. The pressure is getting more and more.

I really need to change.

BandComp ,BlueHouseTeam ,Badminton ,DrivingClass ,Tuition ,AddmathComp ,Homeworks

You just tell me how the hell am I going to handle all these?

Sometimes I am wondering, is it beyond my capability? *Feel like wanna cry .

So I can say that I've gave my priority on my studies before this ,like homeworks, tuition and the addmath thing . but mayb starting today , i need to switch.

I've seen how the band pres really need the members' cooperation. I never helped her. So perhaps it is enough for me just to cope with her, come for every practice and I am sure she will be happier .

Now when it comes to other society, I get dizzy . I once felt like wanted to resign but i need to think wiser i guess . Being a leader is not easy but i choose to challenge myself.

The decision of challenging myself always wins. I just don't know why. haha.

Faiqah, please survive !

Hari ni keputusan SPM keluar kan,

so I heard that Sok Yan , my idol :) got straight A+ s.

Awesome man !

but for me, "what's with the straight As?"

Apa ada pada straight A? Cer cite .

Not all the straight As students can survive in the real life soon.

For me, skills and interaction with people are the most essential . As for me lah.

Okay. That's all i think . I've letting out my thoughts and problems .

Hope my life would change to a better one. Insyaallah , amin.

I have grown up, see?

First of all

Happy Birthday to me :) hihi.

Time really flies fast, don't you think so?

Hmm.. anyways, this year's birthday celebration was quite cool and everyone was chilling actually :)

Most of it I did not ask for but they just did it for me :)

Thank you dears.

Honestly very few people were wishing me compared to last 2 years but it's more than enough that you remember me :)

Thanks to those f8 buddies. Takde seorang pun yang tak wish :) hehe.

And the last to wish me was my 'adik' , Sil :) domo arigatou everyone :)

On the January 21st itself, there was a surprise for me.

I just did not expect it. It's all f8's plan.

Aduyai. Haha ! All this happened after chemistry class in ET.

As usual I'll be asking them where would they go for a lunch before entering physics class at 1415. So, we were heading to KFC near tuition centre . When we all went upstairs, I've got shocked with a cake on a table . Sumpah speechless masa tu.

Dan aku dapat tahu f8 yang sama2 kumpul duit beli kek ni. Terima kasih :')

Besides, I've spent 5 days at my biological mother's house in Banting including on the 21st.

When I reached home, I got surprised again when I entered my room sweet room :) ahaha.

Big thanks to my aunt who had re-designed my room. It looks better and wider :)

I've got a new Ikea study lamp from her though. Alhamdulillah :)

Ni yang semangat ni nak study ^_^ hohoho. Oh yeah loojk ! and a frame.

Nak buat macam mana, ada gambar tu je .Teehee .

Okay let's proceed. This is one of my dream watch.

I did not wearing any watch since last month because I was waiting for my mum to get it for me.

Hehe. Thank you ma.

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There we go. The pict above was on the 25th of January , dad's birthday .

So aku tumpang sekaki lah kan :)

Aksi suap-menyuap ice-cream cake sampai kena calit pipi bagai. Haha :)

On that day, there was some of my dad's workers trying to prank me n dad.

They told me that they were going to "bake".

I knew what they really meant, they wanted to attack me and dad with eggs and flours.

Fortunately I got escaped from them. I ran into my aunt's car, shivering. Bhahaha .

Okay that's all for today's post.

*waiting for Mr.A to fulfil my birthday wishes :) hee.

p/s : I'm going to re-activate my fb account right after the badminton competition.

Pray for MGS :) thank you.

Me trying to brief about school reopen.

I'm back and I miss you readers :)

It's going January 7 tomorrow and I think I'm not too late to wish you Happy New Year :)

To be honest, I hardly welcome this 2012 but I am so grateful that I still have the chances to live this year. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.

2012's Resolutions : Too much to be fulfilled ^_^

School has reopened about a week.

I have been placed in 5 Mantap and I know it will going to be hard for me surrounded by all those 'geniuses' ya Allah. I could hardly believe that

I'm going to work harder than that in the previous year.

I admit that I am NOT FLUENT in language, English of course.

So I'm quite worry about this matter.

Plus, on the first day of school itself, we had our Placement Test for English subject.

That time I could not think even a thing. I just knew that I was shivering for a short moment thinking about that test. But when Pn.Vimala entered my class and briefed about the test, she told us that it doesn't matter if we're not in the first class for English subject.

When I think back, yes, it's true. It does not matter at all and she was telling us that the test was not taken from the common Malaysian test. It is a higher level test taken from outside the country.

I just couldn't believe my ears at that time.

The test is quite hard too but I managed to do and finally, today when I was checking on the list, I found my name in the Set A1 class :) Alhamdulillah.

That really builds up my self-confidence little by little :)

Not only that.

My self-confidence increased when I was chosen as the Blue House Captain.

Syukur. I really wanted that position since Michelle, my ex senior asked me about who will going to be the next blue house captain after her.

I still remember and surely I do miss her a lot.

For me, it's a big responsibility. What I hate about myself is that my voice is too slow.

I just hated that so f*ckin much. I need to do something with it.

That's all I guess. I want to be the old Faiqah, the primary-school Faiqah who once was the busiest girl that had never thought about love matter at all.

I will enjoy my senior year to the fullest before I step out of my beloved school :)

p/s : I am going to reopen my fb accounts again to settle all the problems I had before. Those who have read this post, please tell me if I ever owe you anything even for an apologise. I really need to know. I want to clear everyone who has considered me as enemy. Do tell me :) Iloveyou.

See? I love you . Yes, you (:

Change for the Better

Going 17 ? omg -o-

Boleh tak skip SPM and masuk U terus ? o.O"

Bila recall balik since the holiday began, memang tak lah kan aku belajar.

Cuma attend tuition classes and that's it.

And sekarang rasa ketinggalan gila-gila. Woi I'm going 17 la, in a month . pfft.

Oh before I forget, currently I don't active my fb accounts .

Perhaps temporarily. Depends.

There's a personal reason I did that. So for those my friends,

Just text or call me.

Oh ye. Penat letak harapan tinggi. Penat sakit hati. Penat nak fikir dua benda dalam satu masa.

You just have to remember I won't let you go. But as for now, I need to be alone.

Pretend like this relationship never happen.

Just to make my heart smile back as it did a year before.

You once told me, I'm strong.

Yeah , I always am.

Let me do it with my own way and you'll just have to see the real me soon, very soon .

I'll pay back without hurting you even a scar .

Giving you chances.Yeah, Still.

Yes, being in love is wonderful.

Yes, I am being loved by you.

Yes, we do love each other.

But, why is it pain?

It is just like the love story of peter pan.

They love each other but they can't be together.

A,

You're right. I just wasting my time thinking about love craps. I am going 17.

Let study be my priority, as you remind me.

Right, while I have to see you dating another girl? Is that so?

Can't you just leave me? Instead of

torture me with this stupid feelings? Because I can't leave you.

I would let you take the first step and leave me.

Yes, you changed my life a lot. But if I just go on with my life

as before I confess my feelings towards you,

I think my life would just go smooth without doubt.

p/s : You know what? We just don't belong to each other . That's the reason.

So Untitiled :)

Morning everyone.

First of all, it's school holiday yaww !

Hogwart is now holiday ;D haha.

ok fine.I had a hard time this whole day but all these social networking seem to put a smile on my face tonight. Byebye tears ;P

As usual I'm going to highlight about the final exam :) Here are some cotton for those who don't wanna hear. Oh my pardon , you can't hear me. Oh, what if you just close the tab :) easier.

As I've mentioned before, we were having an amazing fake exam, aite? So how's your result going? Pretty cool,huh (: All the last minute revisions seem have helped you a lot huh? So do I.

(eh , rasanya ak nak cakap banyak tadi. kenapa jari ni terkelu =.=)

Ok fine I won't talk much . About the droping-accounts case . Yeah it haunted me every second till the last day giving name to Pn Tan for those who wanted to drop accounts.

Hence I don't drop .

Okay, someone told me not to drop and to cut it short , she said I just have to depend on Mrs Lee, ET Tuition Acc Teacher. Is it true? Because there are some of my friends went for the tuition class but they didn't score. I doubt. But then I just go for it. My acc first class was going well so far. I have no problem with the way Mrs Lee teaches. But when I started to do the homeworks, I was so rooted to the ground(aish ayat pape ntah ak ni) .But then I just let it be. Maybe it's too early. Honestly I have no interest in learning accounts. It's zero interest okay? But Idk. Perhaps I just love to torture or challenge my ownself. That's the reason.

I can handle acc exam even I dislike it. So why don't I just finish what I've started, am I right?

Them , who made my day !

Let's sum up.

I went to Jusco Bukit Tinggi yesterday which was Saturday . Baru je start cuti. hehe .

Semua cousins yang plan ! Gila rindu dorang !

So I reached there around 1030 . Memang la kan satu jam tnggu. Ak pun makan ice cream sorang2 . Pfft.

But then tiba ak dpt txt 'da smpai' . I didn't know he was coming . Oh yeah,

He is the one down here :) This was the 6th time jumpa after 5years kenal. Haha.

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Surprisingly he's coming :) hehe. But then hang out sekejap je sebab plan nak lepak dengan cousin , bukan dia ^_^" anyway , thanks for coming ! You made my daY !

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Ini la mereka2 yang ak rindu gila tahap maksimum ! :) Cousin Fatin Fairuz tu da brpe bulan tak jumpa sebab dia skarang study kat UiTM Perlis. Kalau tak b4 this asyik berkepit je^^"

Rindu teramat ! So tak lekang lah senyuman kat mulut ni kalau jumpa dorang! ;D I end up sleep over their house , hehe !

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Ye paling rindu budak sebelah kiri tu la! My cousin's bf for 3 years. Gila la! Setahun tak jumpa dia. Tak berubah kot. Enjoy sangat2 jumpa dorang ! Tak puas ! Tak puas buli budak baju hitam tu ! haha .

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Fatin Faiza , Fatin Fairuz .

They have changed me a lot in a better way !

Bersyukur dapat cousins macam korang .

I just love y'all SO DAMN MUCH !

No one else could replace you girls in my heart . Muacks!