what's wrong with me ?!

hmm .. first of all , ak nk mnx maaf kat korang2 sbb ak da byk buat salah kat korg .
apatah lagi family . sejak dua menjak nie, ak selalu depressed .
and , i myself dont even know why i can be so damn depressed .
yg ak tao , everyone around me always getting on my nerves
eventhough sometimes ,
i dont know , ape yang ak da buat kat KAu ? and i m afraid of myself .
recently , someone really makes me mad .
and cume satu bnde je yg ade kat otak ak mse uh,
ak cume tao , yang ak nk cederakan sape2 yg ade kat sekeliling ak .
mate ak pulak tak habis2 carik bnde yg bole cederakan org .
ak rse , nie la akibatnye ble ak da banyak sgt simpan perasaaan dlm hati .
tak ksah la sedih ke, marah ke. selama nie ak tahan je kott .
ak harap pas nie xde sape yg akn buat ak mara
sbb ak tanak cederakan korg . ak tanak .
and habit ak sndri yg ak nk buang jaoh2 ialah ,
ak tanak 'bercakap' dlm hati . that is the most frequently ak buat ble ak diam .
ak bole kutuk , ak bole nanes , ak bole suke kt soemone ,
and all that happens ONLY in my mind or heart .
ak tanak semua nie . ak tak mnx semua nie .

and dear bestbuddy ,
ak sgt2 depressed ngn bf kao yg tak abes2 sowh kao contact die.
skank kao da ade fon kn ,
ak da penat nk jd org tengah korg .
lebih2 lagi bf kao yg childish tapi berlagak matured .
blek2 ak yg kne mara .
ak harap kao sedar stu hari nnti ,
bhw bf kao cume nk maen2 kn kao je .
ak tak berhak nk cakap ape2 . cume, i know what is behind the door .
ak tanak act lbeyh2 . i'll let you decide for your own good .
asl kao bahagia , cukup la.

done with that .
few hours later , i will be going to RSA .
sharp at 5 .
playing futsal with my friends .
playing futsal for the frst time after PMR was over . ( just as i've planned b4)
and that's all i want .
and friends ., i am soo sorry fr what i've done to you .

the behind talks .

the unwanted acts .

i did not mean to do all those silly things .
and now i know what is the meaning of
true loneliness .

Flo Rida - Club Can't Handle Me ft. David Guetta [Official Music Video] ...

100% favourite !! disahkan oleh SIRIM .haha ! gila !

FINALLY ? is it ?

*PHOTO HAS BEEN REMOVED*

rse nye everyone knows what is happening to all the form 3's sudents ,.
yeah , we're free , at last .
day after day , rse cm bru smalam ak tnye org ,
"can i noe what is the date of PMR exam, pls?"
haha . finally kan .

so , skank nie , ble da abes PMR , da tataonk buat pe,.
sebenarnye pun , tgh tnggu kawan2 ajak hanging around kt mne2 nie,.
and what i want is ,
every single person in F8 members must join klaw ade outing nanti ,.
it's a MUST , okay !? ^_^


next , i have to complete my mission !
da plan b4 PMR , so smue kne menjadi ,.
apart from that , klaw time2 cmnie la boring , sah2 la mmg takde keje an selain
melepak , makan , tdo .
so , ape kate , kte start je tuition ! ^_^
i've planned to register fr ET tuition by this week !
so .. drpd buang mse tak buat pape,.
AND
sementare tnggu handphone ak nie memekak sbb kawan2 ajak outing,
its better g tuition ,. plus ,, i miss my tuition teacher .
especially Miss Gan , my only MATHS GUIDER !
and makes me love maths damn f****** much ! lols .


:: PMR was just over ::
i m thinking of something new to do , to watch , to listen ,
in my every single day of my life after THIS big exam .
setelah pantang drpd makan bnde2 yg berminyak , junk food and so on,
drpd berpuasa drpd minum fizzy drinks,
drpd sikap bnci memandang tv screen and computer screen,
apatah lagi handphone screen .
its about time to release everything !
but know what ? i m getting used of keep doing all that such things
untill now . it freaks me out . and its something good to get used of
good things around me n myself .
it isn't just good , but i become a better person la kot .
semua bnde yg selama nie ak addicted , ak da anti .
haha . what the ....


okayy ,. that's all for now .
i shall write again if i get some great news atao sebaliknye .
i m going out now
see ya ~

sony ericsson ::SATIO::

hah ! look at that ?! haha .
its nothing ,. just my dream cell phone . haha ! gosh !
even its 'nothing' if compared to blackberry or blueberry or any other costly handphones out there, idc ..look ! design smart an ?! :) hehe ,.
cool la,. kalau white in colour lg la,. ^_^
ak nak sgtt phone nie ,. hopefully mase bday ak dapat . hehe .
hmm ,. mimpi je kot -.- maybe .
tapi takpe ,. as long as ak suke die ! ;D
hehe ,. gile2 nak kat phone nie !! hee .
done with that .

so tomorrow is another day . few events are waiting for me :)
lols .

one of it is Band Practise . but the president just informed me that there's no practise for tomorrow ! yay ! escape d from that ....

next , liyana has invited me to her house . idk whether i can come a not ,.
perhaps i can but might be late to reach there . cause i have some other events to be going .

now, Khaliq has also invited fatin and friends to be present on Hafiz's openhouse . fatin nak pegi ,. cyan die takde kawan .. ak bukan terpakse teman , ak mmg nk g.. cuma family la kot nnti asyik ckp ak kua umah je memanjang ..
whatever it is, we'll see what will happen tomorrow . if we were going , then it'll be me, khaliq n fatin . we'll go there by train *wink

apart from that , shadiah, my classmates also invited me to go to her open house ,,. gyahhh ... openhaouse here n there la . -.-
pegi kot . tatao lagi . insyaAllah ..

maths tuition . i should be going fr tuition tomorrow but i've cancelled it .
how sad ......

thats all fr now . see ya ........

eh !

p/s : i am awayyy ~ away for about 20 days KOT ! okayy . korang take care kayy ,. pnjg umo, kte jmpe ,. :)

and for those yg tatao lg , if yall nak contact ika mgsband , call me. i cant rply your messages . keypads problem .
okay ! byebye ~

dear cell phone ~

huh ,. dear my sony ericsson k770i . makin lame kao makin menyusahkan ak tao x ,. ;(
lately nie kao punye keypad uh agak bermasalah and u are really getting on my nerves . .
i hate you lar ,. mmg la punca nye ak kot sbb asyik text non stop ,. smpai kao saket cmnie ..
sometimes ble ak nk click laen, kao type laen ,. saket ati ak nie cume tuhan je yg tao ,. =.=
and i hate you even more when you are ringing in my tuition class ! very ashamed man !
when everyone is in silent situation focusing Miss Gan teaching mathematics ..
suddenly only . . .
"i wanna be a billionaire . . so freaking bad......."
cehh ! memang bad pun ! grrr ,. know what ,.
idk la . mayb cause of the keypads , accidentally 'idk what' click the turn off 'silent' i guess .. -.-"
urgh .... i hate you !! i can't forgive your mistakes dear phone ! u have just interuptting me learning my only favourite subject , MATHEMATICS !
done with that . idk what to do on you .. nak tukar , tengah takde duit pulak .
nk repair , ak bnci tgk kao nnti ,. haish .. tgk la dulu ... :]

Nick Jonas - Introducing Me - Camp Rock 2 The Final Jam (Full w/ LYRICS)

my favourite song !!!!!

7th and 8th of September 10'

-7TH
HANGING OUT WITH LIYANA IZAM AND ADLINA AZIZAN ^_^

firstly , thanks kat korang sbb dtg rumah utk study sme2 .
klaw korg tak dtg, rse nye ak tak sentuh buku pun for the whole weeks :)

that day, the good news was adlina came to my house at 9' in the morning . :)
but the bad news , i have to wake up early just to greet her . lols. too early . . =.=' lols.
never mind la. :) study punye pasal .
then liyana pulak came to my house at 11 .
so far, we have finished studying mathematics ! ^_^ alhamdulillah .
but unfortunately we cannot cover all the chapters for science . ;(
later , we started chatting and chatting .
dorg bukak puasa pun kat rumah :)
enjoy seyh !
then , that night we went for solat terawih together . :)
everything TOGETHER ! ^_^
thanks guys .
I had so much fun with u guys ! :)
nxt time, come over to my house more often ! ^_^
i love you !!

-8TH
WENT TO SHAH ALAM'S LIBRARY +FARA SYAMIMI+LIYANA+
8th of sept which is today , we went there by car la for sure .
the purpose of going there is to get used to a new or differ place for studying .
geography was 'so so' while sejarah , so far liyana did a good job teaching us sejarah !
^_^ she was like telling a bedtime stories to us .
lols . but then ktorg terserempak ngn nashvin and billy kat library .
i dont think so they noticed us .whatever it is,
later then we went to alam sentral ............
went for praying . mula2 sesat la gak nk crik surau .
then , tnye one of the salesgirl there.
liyana's finger pulak berdarah ..fuhh .
crik farmasi pun susa jugak . haha. what a day ~ :)
then ! guess who we meet there ?!
again "b&n" . they notice us that time . eh2,
bukan nk ckp nie.. we met aliah nattasha, our schoolmate but my classmate n the only bestfriend ! :)
haha ,. done eith that , we went back to the library n belaja maths . masing2 buat hal sndri ,.
mse nk blek tu , naik uncle fara . tunggu agak lme la kot.
then mse da smpai , tak sngke lak dr 5.30 smpai kowl 7 mlm bru smpai umah .
smpai masing2 tertidur dlm kete ..
but its okay . :)
thanks fara ! ^_^
noe wat ? i really had a whale of time for this TWO days . ^_^
nyway , i love u adlina, liyana, fara !! ^_^ ~