I Have Had Enough (!)

dear --------------
ak tatao nk panggil kao ape . yeah , u are part of the family .
tapi ak tak suke kao .maaf sebab gunekan 'kao' untuk bhse kan diri kao .
agak kasar sebab kao jaoh lebih tua dr ak . nak buad cmne .
ak tak suke kann kao . kao dengki . kao iri hati .
tp kao jgn risau . ak tak aib kan kao pun .
ak tak tulis nme kao . ak tatao cmne la org bole tahan dgn kao .
semua kena jge hati kao , perasaan kao .
wehh , kalau tak puas hati ke ape ke ,
cakap depann weh ! jgn jd kecut mengadu kat org lain .
sebar sane sini fitnah kao . pengaruh org yg ak syg supaye terpedaye dgn kao .
kao memang duri dalam daging tao tak ?
kao terlalu tajam . tapi MAAF . ak tak sebodoh yang kao sangke .
ak kenal kao sejak dlu lagi . sejak fmily ak kate kao baek .
huh , baik ?? baik ade makne ..
ak bole nmpk lahh trap kao . tak brape cunning lahh . duhh~
skank ade some of the family dah tao prangai kao .
kao tunggu jela ~
ak malas la nk cerite panjang2 pasal kao . kesian pulak .
tapi , ak harap kao berhenti la fitnah2 .
yes, memang kao bagus . you are wiser . so what ?!
do watch your mouth !
enuf la .,
pasnie klaw ak dgar kao tuduh2 ak macam2 , pndai2 la kao fkir dosa pahala ek .
sick of youu , ------------------ !

She's Sick .... *again*

Dia saket lagii ? *sigh

Yeah, memang tu yang dia nak dari dulu .
Alasannya , kalau sakit , tak payah buat kerja, tak payah pergi sekolah .
Dan alasan yang boleh diterima kalau nk excuse daripada something .
'ouh..' baru dia tahu yang sakit sebenarnya tak semudah yang dia sangka untuk lalui.
Tahun nie banyak kali dia cakap dia nak sakit.
She's sick of her own life actually .
Dia kata lahh . And , dia pernah mintak untuk hilang ingatan .. Sebab , bagi dia, semua masalah boleh dilupakan. Tak suffer .
Camtu ke??

Sakit tauu ?

Dia start sakit masa sebelum PMR . She was suffered from fever 1 week before the big exam began . Sekarang baru dia rasa macam mana sakit pada waktu2 camtu .
Again , 'ouh..'
Disebabkan dia sayang sangat pada pelajaran lebih dari dia sayang diri dia, and family dia , dia takkan hilangkan spirit dia untuk ambil PMR , dia berubah . Dia benci makan ubat . Eh , bukan benci kot .
Dia tak ingat nak makan ubat . Tapi semenjak tu , dia betul2 jaga kesihatan dia semata mata nak kan spirit exam tuh . Kalau dia sakit mase amek exam , she'd be very dissapointed with herself . Selama seminggu dia jaga diri dia . Fuhh . speechless .
Tak pernah tgk dia betul2 care kat diri dia . Fortunately , dia sembuh . Dia amek exam dengan senang hati and holds the exam spirit smpai 11 Oktober 2010 habis . Alhamdulillah . Dia sihat .

Once again , after PMR was just over , dia langsung lupa pasal diri dia. Dia langsung tak kisah orang nak cakap ape . Bagi dia , dia nk rasa freedom lepas exam . Even sampai menyusahkan orang lain apatah lagi diri dia sendiri . Dia makan makanan2 yang tak seimbang , tak sihat . DIa buat aktiviti2 yang tak berfaedah 24 7 . Apa boleh cakap ? Dia cuma nak dapat apa yang dia nak . Duit semua habis . Excellent huh ? -.-

Sakit . Lagi sekali ?? 3 words for youu , "Serves you right!"
Sekarang lain pulak penyakit . Dulu adik dia and arwah kakak dia sendiri pernah lalui penyakit tuh . Sekarang , dia ? Dulu start dengan arwah kakak dia, kakak dia tak selamat . Adik dia kena, rasa macam takde effect . Sekarang dia rasa .
Dia tak tahu itu penyakit atau apa tapi dia takut .
Penyakit yang membawa kepada Lymphoma .
Pernah dengar tak ?
Her father brought her to the clinic . She had to undergo for 3 injections .
DIa kata sakit . Dia yang kata la ..
Dia tak suka doktor yang inject dia for the third time . Tak macam doktor .
Pheww ,.
Dia pulak dah kembali pada diri yang tak suka makan ubat.
'Not again ..' Fed-up tauu tak?
Tapi alhamdulillah jugak dia dah sembuh ,.

*sigh
Tapi dia sakit lagi sekali .
Siapa tak fed up ? Dia sendiri dah lali makan ubat .
Pheww . But nasib baik kali nie penyakit tak teruk .
Dan dia cakap paling best , dia tak perlu makan pil . :)
Lega betull. .
Tak makan ubat pun sakit . Kali ni lagi sakit.
Korang pnah rase kudd .
Doktor cakap dia kena Ulser mulut.
Suffer betul dia. Kesian tengok . Tapi DEGIL .
Nak makan susah . Nak menguap susah .
Dan yang paling teruk , dia susah nak senyum , apatah lagi gelak .
Orang sakit kalau senyum atao gelak cepat sembuh ken ?
Tapi ... *ayat tergantung*

Hmm .. orang sekeliling dia concern sangat suruh makan ubat
sampai kan dia sendiri depressed dengan situasi cmtu .
Macam kat dalam gambar atas nie la . Tak habis2 .
Kadang2 dia rimas ..
Kali nie ubat cuma a kind of lotion . Oral Aid Lotion .
'Yucks ..'
Macam2 la kao nie ..
Sekarang ,
24-7 dia kena minum air mineral ,
24-7 dia kena makan buah-buahan right after her every meal .
Huh ., it's a MUST again and she HAVE TO. nak buat camne..
End of story .
'Dia' la aku .
'Dia' ialah Ika Mgsband .
'Dia' degil , 'Dia' sendiri mintak penyakit
and ,. any last word ?
APE? ?
Get Well Soon ??
Gila ? Sebenarnye PADAN MUKA ..

Kerja Janji Siap :)

woots woots !
hey there , hey me !
termasuk kau , kau dan kau , ckap , "bile awak nak update blog?"
ha dan ha dan ha ,. ak pun takde idea nak update ape ,.
asyik ponteng skola je kan, mne la tao nk update ape,.
sebab , kat rumah pun keje ak tidur je smpai tgh hari ,.
korang nk ak cte ape? Kisah mimpi ak peh ? ahaha .
okay la okay la .. korang nampak tak gambar at sane uh ?
haaa ,. itulah ...........bukan gambar ak . (:
that's the model of paper dolls.
ape kne mengena patung2 kecil yg tak bersalah nie dengan ak ?
haaa ... nie la yang ak malu nk cte ,.
tapi da terlanjur bgtao , alang alang menyeluk pekasam , biar sampai ke pangkal lengan, kan ?
pada hari Isnin iaitu semalam , ade aktiviti utk budak budak form 3 as usual . duhh ,.

kami kami dikehendaki membuat paper doll and cyap bju2 sekali . haish .
actually mereka mereka dah lame start since last friday . tak aci doe !
ala salah kami kami nie jugak tak datang hari tersebut.
so cikgu bagi la kami kami nie bahan2 . malu sehh . bahan bahan semua dipinjam drpd sape2 yg sudi meminjamkan . terima kasih la ekk,.muke tembok je suda . (: ade ak kesah ?

sebelum tu , 'kami kami' tu ialah ak sendiri, aliah nattasha, nur eliana, farahaleina dan nurfatin syahirah. haha ,. inilah name2 yg tak datang hari TERSEBUT tu . :)
kami kami berusaha gak la buat semua bnde2 uh . It should be an interesting game, 'actually' tapi , sebab we did it at the eleventh hour , finally , siap kot paper doll tu . speechless la ak tgk hasil kerja kami kami . macam shemale pun ade ,. haha . cyan nye kami .....
ape ape pun kami hantar jugak ., apela,. malu je,.
and thanks to Pn Nadia Lee sebab tolong kami kami last minute mse ktorg nk give up (: haha.
suda suda la. malu la ak nk recount blek :P
and thanks gk members of Eleventh Hour Team sebab buat model shemale dengan rambut yang tak cukup . haha !



nie lagi satu . aktiviti budak budak form 3 pada hari selasa , iaitu ari ni .
A day before Deepavali Holiday . Sakai la nk cte pasal nie.
To cut it short , tgk cikgu pegang kertas banyak banyak and sellotape tu , sape2 pun bole agak da ape task ktorang . tak lain tak bukan , bina la bnde2 yang pelik pelik .
Hence , ktorang kena build something yang strong yang boleh accommodate some loads .
mule2 kami tatao ape loads yg cikgu nk test kat model ktorg ,.
We end up with creating a not-so-strong *a kind of table. :) haha .
Members of my team ialah Liyana, as our team leader , aku sendiri, Nurfatin Syahirah, Nur Eliana, Aliah Nattasha, Nur Adlina, Nur Aishah, Farahaleina, Ng Yen Nee dan Sim Zhi Qin.
Hurm , loads yang cikgu bagi ialah 10 buah botol air yang masih penuh isinya .
Unfortunately , our model can only accommodate 8 water bottles . Thanks to Subashini and Liyana sebab fikir care nk tampung beban tu . ^_^

So, that's all for this week's activities. Done with that. Start besok , cuti ... Ak takde idea nak buat ape ,. nak lepak ngn kawan kawan .. :) bole tak korang?

p/s :Happy Deepavali to all the Hindu-s ,. Enjoy la ek .

toodles ~

these make me feel perfect (:

MARCELL CHANDRAWINATA

ouh my Gucci ! he's hot !! i dont know why suddenly only i can attract with someone gile2 ! kalau attract kat actor skali pun takde la smpai mcm nie .haha.

it started when i was first watching a series drama named Alisa . Every Monday to Thursday , at 2.00 pm . wahh ! ^_^ first and foremost , i LOVE him for his character . He's such a lovely gentleman in this drama . He acts as Nuno . He is so caring for his love* . And his attitude reminds me of someone and kebetulan pulak his looking is just looks alike as one of my friend . ahh ! what a small world . (:

in a nutshell , He is obviously a lovely gentleman ! aww . ^_^

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first of all , ak SAYANG korang ! hey , adlina lebih ckit ! ;D

HARI SELASA , 19 Oct 10'

the lucky chosen day . the last minute plans were really benefit us .^_^

at first , i could not leave my only netball competition by not going to school .

agak keberatan . pheww !

fortunately , after having fun hanging out and went for outing with f8s ,

langsung tak menyesal sbb tak dtg skola . :)

having lots of fun sbb da lme tak hanging around sme2 !

thanks girls . you all make my day . :)

*speechless*

what's wrong with me ?!

hmm .. first of all , ak nk mnx maaf kat korang2 sbb ak da byk buat salah kat korg .
apatah lagi family . sejak dua menjak nie, ak selalu depressed .
and , i myself dont even know why i can be so damn depressed .
yg ak tao , everyone around me always getting on my nerves
eventhough sometimes ,
i dont know , ape yang ak da buat kat KAu ? and i m afraid of myself .
recently , someone really makes me mad .
and cume satu bnde je yg ade kat otak ak mse uh,
ak cume tao , yang ak nk cederakan sape2 yg ade kat sekeliling ak .
mate ak pulak tak habis2 carik bnde yg bole cederakan org .
ak rse , nie la akibatnye ble ak da banyak sgt simpan perasaaan dlm hati .
tak ksah la sedih ke, marah ke. selama nie ak tahan je kott .
ak harap pas nie xde sape yg akn buat ak mara
sbb ak tanak cederakan korg . ak tanak .
and habit ak sndri yg ak nk buang jaoh2 ialah ,
ak tanak 'bercakap' dlm hati . that is the most frequently ak buat ble ak diam .
ak bole kutuk , ak bole nanes , ak bole suke kt soemone ,
and all that happens ONLY in my mind or heart .
ak tanak semua nie . ak tak mnx semua nie .

and dear bestbuddy ,
ak sgt2 depressed ngn bf kao yg tak abes2 sowh kao contact die.
skank kao da ade fon kn ,
ak da penat nk jd org tengah korg .
lebih2 lagi bf kao yg childish tapi berlagak matured .
blek2 ak yg kne mara .
ak harap kao sedar stu hari nnti ,
bhw bf kao cume nk maen2 kn kao je .
ak tak berhak nk cakap ape2 . cume, i know what is behind the door .
ak tanak act lbeyh2 . i'll let you decide for your own good .
asl kao bahagia , cukup la.

done with that .
few hours later , i will be going to RSA .
sharp at 5 .
playing futsal with my friends .
playing futsal for the frst time after PMR was over . ( just as i've planned b4)
and that's all i want .
and friends ., i am soo sorry fr what i've done to you .

the behind talks .

the unwanted acts .

i did not mean to do all those silly things .
and now i know what is the meaning of
true loneliness .

Flo Rida - Club Can't Handle Me ft. David Guetta [Official Music Video] ...

100% favourite !! disahkan oleh SIRIM .haha ! gila !

FINALLY ? is it ?

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rse nye everyone knows what is happening to all the form 3's sudents ,.
yeah , we're free , at last .
day after day , rse cm bru smalam ak tnye org ,
"can i noe what is the date of PMR exam, pls?"
haha . finally kan .

so , skank nie , ble da abes PMR , da tataonk buat pe,.
sebenarnye pun , tgh tnggu kawan2 ajak hanging around kt mne2 nie,.
and what i want is ,
every single person in F8 members must join klaw ade outing nanti ,.
it's a MUST , okay !? ^_^


next , i have to complete my mission !
da plan b4 PMR , so smue kne menjadi ,.
apart from that , klaw time2 cmnie la boring , sah2 la mmg takde keje an selain
melepak , makan , tdo .
so , ape kate , kte start je tuition ! ^_^
i've planned to register fr ET tuition by this week !
so .. drpd buang mse tak buat pape,.
AND
sementare tnggu handphone ak nie memekak sbb kawan2 ajak outing,
its better g tuition ,. plus ,, i miss my tuition teacher .
especially Miss Gan , my only MATHS GUIDER !
and makes me love maths damn f****** much ! lols .


:: PMR was just over ::
i m thinking of something new to do , to watch , to listen ,
in my every single day of my life after THIS big exam .
setelah pantang drpd makan bnde2 yg berminyak , junk food and so on,
drpd berpuasa drpd minum fizzy drinks,
drpd sikap bnci memandang tv screen and computer screen,
apatah lagi handphone screen .
its about time to release everything !
but know what ? i m getting used of keep doing all that such things
untill now . it freaks me out . and its something good to get used of
good things around me n myself .
it isn't just good , but i become a better person la kot .
semua bnde yg selama nie ak addicted , ak da anti .
haha . what the ....


okayy ,. that's all for now .
i shall write again if i get some great news atao sebaliknye .
i m going out now
see ya ~