Me getting Inspired

Wow it has been a hectic month.
Well, exam month of course. It's kinda normal. But to be honest, I am still don't realize that I am going to sit for a big exam less than two months time. That is because my Mr. Shiva always said "What's with the straight A's man?! You must have no life!" So, since then I don't bother getting an A for any of the subjects but neither am I wanted to fail tho. I've got my own lines that I would ever hold with upon my life, that is "It's never too late to learn" and "It's Payback Time!". My teacher even told us to always bear in mind that "You all are becoming a top scorer!" So, imma have 3 lines to push myself to success. Unfortunately, I've changed. I never wanted to study. Didn't feel like I have to. I was wasting my time this whole months. The recent trial exam for me was like 'I don't give a damn' . You know what, I am studying for myself, my knowledge. Not for those st*pid exams!
When I was in sejarah kintet class this evening, he remind us to study. He asked us, "Did you committed on whatever you're doing?" and we just like "Noooo..." even I was saying NO. Then he asked again, "Did you care for yourself?" and we were like "Yeah . ." and he was just "YOU'RE LYING!" . All of us were shocked. He said that if we do care for ourselves, why don't we get committed towards everything we did? "You don't even studying" . He was not scolding , of course. He's too adorable to scold us. He knew us well and he knew we didn't get used to studying. Know what, that time only I realize that I had not being committed for whatever I did before. How useless I am, when I think back. I feel like crying and I am regret for wasting my precious time. I never abandon my studies of course but I was not serious about it.
I need my old self, really. I've changed a lot. And I sleep a lot too. That's not good at all.
How I miss my old self! Oh god.
I do not want to plan anything for my future. Because I did that before and none of them comes true. It was just a dream.

I am now getting obsessed towards Justin Bieber. I don't know what is happening to me. I kept saying to myself, "I'm not a belieber , no I am not." but here I am. Listening to his songs, watching every videos of him. Seriously I don't understand what is happening. I turned out to be like this since I watched his movie, Never Say Never. Same  goes to Harry Potter. ugh. I don't care. He is just too adorable for me to ignore him :) I currently adored his song, Down to Earth and I play it on shuffle everyday. Wow.

9 down, 1 more to go and that would be accounts paper on next Friday. I cannot wait for the moment when exam gonna be over. Hehe. I think that's all for now. Good luck in whatever you do. I love you, Yes you ! <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">
Love,
Ika Mgsband

// currently happy with my life . Miss you much Tuan A //

The End

Assalamualaikum readers.
Okay laaa. Petang tadi baru je habis sports day. *Oh actually that's my final sports day*sad*
Taknak cerita banyak kot. Dah kalah , urgh!
Seriously I am not happy it ! And wth? I've never been so emo like this.
This is craaazzayyy ! I've been very competitive this year. I've never had such this feeling , ever!
At first memang lah tak boleh terima sebab kalah. Bila dah beberapa jam lepas tu, rasa penat dan penat dan penat sampai rasa sedih and frust tu pegi camtu je. Fuhh.

But my sports day this year was a hectic!
I am one of the school marching band members and also quite a runner. hehe.
So the events I've participated were not well-scheduled. Really disorganised !
I need to run here and there to get in the right place at the right moment , jyahh..
The first one was the march. So right after marching out, 1500m run was the next event.
The problem was, I participated the run but I was in the band squad! Memang gila la pulak.
Sampai all the teachers kept calling me, "faiqah make it fast make it fast" lols
The next problem - I was in the band attire and I need to change from slacks to tracksuits, black canvas shoes to sport shoes , un-hat-ed, passed my instrument to juniors. Urgh stress .

That was my first and last 1500m run I participated. Seriously, I won't let myself to join that kind of run anymore with no training and didn't breakfast just like this morning ! That was very suffering for me.
Fine I didn't expect to win but at least I've tried even I was forced by the teachers, and finally I got number 5. Bhahaha ! So, syukur Alhamdulillah I may rest for about 15 minutes before the band performance began.
Feeling like puking, duhh .
Band performance! Wohoo ! I love it to the maximum ! Nak buat lagi! hehe
Both songs are new to us and we've made it man! :) The Bad Romance, actually my friends and I were planning to pose such , I'm going to lie down on the track and they lean against my legs. But everything was cancelled at the eleventh hour since we're too tired , but we've made it right :D
wohoo :) nawwhh .

So, my last event was the 4x400m run :) yeah , this is my favourite part . It was also my last 4x400m run.
Ohh, this was a hectic too . Right after the performance, I give my band attire, instrument and the hat to my friend, and blue house teacher held my hand and brought me to the track. Mauuu tak gilaaa kan.
*Bila ingat balik, memang tergelak la kann , haha*
Okay, straight to the point lah. Macam biasa we won the race. :) Yeah.
That one thing I won't forget is that I've hold the title champion for 4x400m run for 4 years, except when I was in form 3 since one of my team fainted. I won't forget this. And that is why this event will be my favourite till whenever. Hehe.

At the end of the sports day, Blue House Team became the third.
I can now accept the decision that Yellow House Team lead the sports day. They became champion for 2012. Mula2 memang tak boleh nak terima sampaikan my best friends yg rumah kuning pun dah jadi awkward dah nak tegur. Memang sebak and sedih !
Okayy lahh . Anyway, I just realised that I greet a lot of people today. I'm not the Faiqah who is shy and uncommunicative . Wahh , that is a small step of improvement hehe .

Okayy till then loveyou :)

Simple tips sincerely by me :)

Assalamualaikum.
Well , sports day was over! So I guess I should stop being busy here and there.
I have abandoned my studies for so long since April,  if I'm not mistaken.
Wooahh that's a very long period deyy ! It's been two months Faiqah.
Wow.
I think this is the right time. I won't say "I need to change", instead,
I would just have to remind myself that "This Is The Time" lols. Seriously there was not enough time to change ourselves but we can do something with it. Encourage yourself, not ask or force yourself to change.
It won't work, friends. Start motivating yourself. Let study becomes our habit, not our priority. Bare that in mind.
Urgh, what I've said may not helping you out but that's me and my mindset. I'm sharing it with you if you get my words.
I believe in myself , not others. Really, just 'Trust No One' hehe. You are fighting with yourself, dear.
You yourself are your competitor, if you know what i mean.
Let say you've been studied again and again, lagi-lagi kalau benda yang korang study tu benda yang sama kan. So, up till now, you still find yourself stuck far behind and didn't improve in your studies.
People, the time is now. Change your style of studying. That's the first essential step.
I've experienced that and I enjoy it very much. Make sure you've 'master' few subjects, at least 3.
What I mean here is , let say, you are good at History, Accounts and Maths. Okay , then the next thing you have to do is that you need to ensure the three subjects' results are compulsary to get As in every examination, even if you don't study much , you still can score an A for each of the subjects. Then only you'll feel a bit of freedom. Err and next, you just have to cover a number of subjects well and smoothly.
Kalau faham apa yang telah diterangkan, well done! you may start now. Yeah NOW. Don't need to scroll down to read the bottom one.
But if you don't get it, serves you right :P haha. Just joking. Well you may ask me anything regarding this topic by commenting them down here. InsyaAllah, I'll be helping and I'm sorry if you don't like the way I brief. I just love to see people get inspired and determined to improve their life :)

*I'm sorry for the broken english I've made. My recent English marks was terrible but I just have no idea why on earth did I love this second language in Malaysia ^_^

Grr

Hey there.

Rasa macam tak nak cakap banyak je hari ni.

I just miss to crap in my blog.

These few weeks were the Career Week which I used to think about what I'm going to do after SPM ends. Since then, sekarang dah tak banyak study pun sebab fikir benda-benda ni.

Actually tak jelas pun apa yang dikehendaki untuk masa depan.

But I chose to go with the foundation studies - engineering course.

Why engineering? There are several reasons but not my interest pun.

One of the reasons is saje je nak challenge my capabilities. Gila pulak kan.

Banyak lagi sebab. Ok enuf with the craps.

Next Tuesday is an Open Day .

Right after the mid exam, I have told my dad not to come to the Open Day. lol.

And he asked why. I just told him that I didn't perform well. It's the worst. ever.

He asked again, why? Then I told him I didn't study. I have no time to cover all the subjects. 

I think he knew the reason because before the exam week, I rarely been at home.

I was going here and there with the band practices. Just so he knows.

But lately I've told him to come to the Open Day. "Kata tak payah datang?" Then I just replied, "Datang , ambil report card then balik" Only then he asked with my results. LOL 

Alright just so you know the next another Tuesday is going to be Sports Day . Duh .

Stop sighing laaaa Faiqah . . .Haih. *nah, i'm doing it again.

I don't expect the blue house team to win as last year. The victory is not ours .

Why did i say that? Just ask yourself. Did you come to the practices and cooperate? Hmm?

Enough. I'm not going to keep talking about this matter. 

I really appreciate those who cooperate with the practices and help gaining marks for the team.

Eh I talked too much already. Going to bed now and toodles! Assalamualaikum.

Letting out

School life. Turns out to be mess day by day.

And now, it is almost 12am and I still in front of lappy.

I've planned to finish up all my homeworks but I end up doing nothing.

It is all because the stupid commitments towards school.

I didn't blame on the school tasks. It is me who needs to change my lifestyle.

I myself have realised the changes that is happening to me. The pressure is getting more and more.

I really need to change.

BandComp ,BlueHouseTeam ,Badminton ,DrivingClass ,Tuition ,AddmathComp ,Homeworks

You just tell me how the hell am I going to handle all these?

Sometimes I am wondering, is it beyond my capability? *Feel like wanna cry .

So I can say that I've gave my priority on my studies before this ,like homeworks, tuition and the addmath thing . but mayb starting today , i need to switch.

I've seen how the band pres really need the members' cooperation. I never helped her. So perhaps it is enough for me just to cope with her, come for every practice and I am sure she will be happier .

Now when it comes to other society, I get dizzy . I once felt like wanted to resign but i need to think wiser i guess . Being a leader is not easy but i choose to challenge myself.

The decision of challenging myself always wins. I just don't know why. haha.

Faiqah, please survive !

Hari ni keputusan SPM keluar kan,

so I heard that Sok Yan , my idol :) got straight A+ s.

Awesome man !

but for me, "what's with the straight As?"

Apa ada pada straight A? Cer cite .

Not all the straight As students can survive in the real life soon.

For me, skills and interaction with people are the most essential . As for me lah.

Okay. That's all i think . I've letting out my thoughts and problems .

Hope my life would change to a better one. Insyaallah , amin.

I have grown up, see?

First of all

Happy Birthday to me :) hihi.

Time really flies fast, don't you think so?

Hmm.. anyways, this year's birthday celebration was quite cool and everyone was chilling actually :)

Most of it I did not ask for but they just did it for me :)

Thank you dears.

Honestly very few people were wishing me compared to last 2 years but it's more than enough that you remember me :)

Thanks to those f8 buddies. Takde seorang pun yang tak wish :) hehe.

And the last to wish me was my 'adik' , Sil :) domo arigatou everyone :)

On the January 21st itself, there was a surprise for me.

I just did not expect it. It's all f8's plan.

Aduyai. Haha ! All this happened after chemistry class in ET.

As usual I'll be asking them where would they go for a lunch before entering physics class at 1415. So, we were heading to KFC near tuition centre . When we all went upstairs, I've got shocked with a cake on a table . Sumpah speechless masa tu.

Dan aku dapat tahu f8 yang sama2 kumpul duit beli kek ni. Terima kasih :')

Besides, I've spent 5 days at my biological mother's house in Banting including on the 21st.

When I reached home, I got surprised again when I entered my room sweet room :) ahaha.

Big thanks to my aunt who had re-designed my room. It looks better and wider :)

I've got a new Ikea study lamp from her though. Alhamdulillah :)

Ni yang semangat ni nak study ^_^ hohoho. Oh yeah loojk ! and a frame.

Nak buat macam mana, ada gambar tu je .Teehee .

Okay let's proceed. This is one of my dream watch.

I did not wearing any watch since last month because I was waiting for my mum to get it for me.

Hehe. Thank you ma.

*photos have been removed*

There we go. The pict above was on the 25th of January , dad's birthday .

So aku tumpang sekaki lah kan :)

Aksi suap-menyuap ice-cream cake sampai kena calit pipi bagai. Haha :)

On that day, there was some of my dad's workers trying to prank me n dad.

They told me that they were going to "bake".

I knew what they really meant, they wanted to attack me and dad with eggs and flours.

Fortunately I got escaped from them. I ran into my aunt's car, shivering. Bhahaha .

Okay that's all for today's post.

*waiting for Mr.A to fulfil my birthday wishes :) hee.

p/s : I'm going to re-activate my fb account right after the badminton competition.

Pray for MGS :) thank you.

Me trying to brief about school reopen.

I'm back and I miss you readers :)

It's going January 7 tomorrow and I think I'm not too late to wish you Happy New Year :)

To be honest, I hardly welcome this 2012 but I am so grateful that I still have the chances to live this year. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.

2012's Resolutions : Too much to be fulfilled ^_^

School has reopened about a week.

I have been placed in 5 Mantap and I know it will going to be hard for me surrounded by all those 'geniuses' ya Allah. I could hardly believe that

I'm going to work harder than that in the previous year.

I admit that I am NOT FLUENT in language, English of course.

So I'm quite worry about this matter.

Plus, on the first day of school itself, we had our Placement Test for English subject.

That time I could not think even a thing. I just knew that I was shivering for a short moment thinking about that test. But when Pn.Vimala entered my class and briefed about the test, she told us that it doesn't matter if we're not in the first class for English subject.

When I think back, yes, it's true. It does not matter at all and she was telling us that the test was not taken from the common Malaysian test. It is a higher level test taken from outside the country.

I just couldn't believe my ears at that time.

The test is quite hard too but I managed to do and finally, today when I was checking on the list, I found my name in the Set A1 class :) Alhamdulillah.

That really builds up my self-confidence little by little :)

Not only that.

My self-confidence increased when I was chosen as the Blue House Captain.

Syukur. I really wanted that position since Michelle, my ex senior asked me about who will going to be the next blue house captain after her.

I still remember and surely I do miss her a lot.

For me, it's a big responsibility. What I hate about myself is that my voice is too slow.

I just hated that so f*ckin much. I need to do something with it.

That's all I guess. I want to be the old Faiqah, the primary-school Faiqah who once was the busiest girl that had never thought about love matter at all.

I will enjoy my senior year to the fullest before I step out of my beloved school :)

p/s : I am going to reopen my fb accounts again to settle all the problems I had before. Those who have read this post, please tell me if I ever owe you anything even for an apologise. I really need to know. I want to clear everyone who has considered me as enemy. Do tell me :) Iloveyou.

See? I love you . Yes, you (: